“I don’t know that we’re in the same place anymore, that we want the same thing,” she said. “I’ve been struggling with the question of ‘who is this person?’ for a while.”
Gosselin, who has previously denied having an affair with Neild, recalled the first time she heard the name of the woman with whom her husband was reportedly having an affair.
“It’s one of those things where you can try to make it go away,” Gosselin said, “but there’s blaring, red flashing lights.”
Jon Gesselin has denied cheating with the 23-year-old schoolteacher, and he apologized for putting his family in an “awkward situation.” But Kate Gosselin told People she can finally envision a future apart from Jon.
“It’s a lot like when I was first pregnant with the babies, and it was pure shock and denial. But over time I imagined six cribs in my house, and six car seats. When your mind is ready to go there, you can accept any number of scenarios.”
Kate does have hope, however, that her marriage can be saved. “I will never give up hope that every member of our family can be absolutely happy again,” she says.
For the complete story on Kate and Jon pick up the new issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday
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